Ever-so-often, usually out of the blue, I have "Mommy moment." The kind where it suddenly washes over you just how amazing it is to be entrusted with this fabulous little being.
I have a Mommy moment almost every time she lays her head down on my chest when she's tired. Does anything feel better than a baby melting into you? I get them on the mornings when she starts crying to get up, then just lights up when my face finally appears over the crib. I still can't sing her "You Are My Sunshine" without bursting into tears because of just how full my heart swells.
I have been trying to get back into the swing of my contract jobs for the last couple weeks with little success. After putting Isa to bed it's very tough to make myself sit down at the computer and work for 3 hours. All I want to do is go curl up in bed or read a book or simply veg in front of the TV. On Monday I was especially exhausted from the complete sleep meltdown of the previous night. Then, at our Mommy & Me group, she rolled over to her tummy for the first time. And I had yet another Mommy moment.
And I realized THAT is how I will find the energy to get the work done- so I can be there to see all those amazing firsts. I never thought as a single mom that I'd be able to essentially be a stay at home mom. I need to take advantage of that opportunity. Because everything else just kind of pales in comparison with the joy of a Mommy moment.